Do you believe we can completely transform ourselves?
Teena hadn’t pondered that question much until the day she lost her 23-year old son.
The loss of a child is inexpressible and unbearable. Teena experienced this loss just a few short years ago. That day, her life took a vast shift. It brought her to her knees and little mattered to her from that point forward.
But then one day, she woke up and said ‘no more’. She knew her son wouldn’t want her grief and guilt for what she could have done better to be her life. It was then that she made a conscious choice to LIVE again. She knew it was time to engage in life on a higher level and to get herself on her rightful path. Of course, this is easier said than done, but because it came from what she describes as ‘inner knowing’, she listened. Teena was being told to get up, put her feet back in motion and what she loves, but at that point, anything would have been an improvement. Teena always saw herself as a spiritual person, perhaps some might have described her as a bit ‘hippy-ish’ with her deep connection to the earth. The ‘right’ path felt hazy. She did not know quite which direction to go so she embarked on an incredible inner journey that would eventually take her on a synchronistic outer journey as well.
The defining moment for Teena was when it hit her that we get knocked down, sometimes on purpose, so that we can see our own worth and potential from a new vantage point. For her, it really became that simple. It was that paradigm shift when the feelings and the knowings began to bring the guidance she had previously been seeking outside of herself. For some people, that’s what it takes – a traumatic event to shake them to the core, for others, they just seem to ‘remember’ without a radical event.
Teena has always been a seeker, an avid explorer, and experiencer – and an inquisitive adventure-lover who always needed a deeper understanding and to experience more. As her ‘outer’ path started slowly seeping back into her world – she held great fear of getting sucked back into the old ways, the old paradigm, the old energies – hers and the world’s – but she wouldn’t let this happen.
She needed to become strong – starting with yoga, then meditation. Next, she became a Reiki Master – slowly morphing into working with tuning forks, crystal bowls, and essential oils, until she became a Certified HeartMath Trainer and Coach. That’s when the real shift began. When Teena started practicing her heart-focused breathing and using her Inner Balance tool, her inner-strength became more resilient, eventually to a point where she was certain there would be no going back.
Eventually, she was led to become an Akashic Records Guide and she is currently studying the work of the Shaman.
Through these passions, her own unique healing emerged. This does not mean Teena has arrived. No. But she can now share her story in such a way that she feels others will benefit. Those going through a similar ‘metamorphosis’ can have a bit more comfort in some of the lessons Teena went through and organized into a meaningful and manageable program. What this means is that it’s still your journey, but with road signs and a few railings in place.
Within Teena’s painful journey, that deep sensitivity that she always was told was a weakness, now became her strength. and took on a whole new meaning. Subtle energies began emerging in the most unexpected ways – synchronicities that were hard to explain, pathways that she hadn’t seen previously and didn’t expect would suddenly appear. By connecting to her heart, Teena reached her soul and the Healing Heartist emerged from its cocoon.
Teena had spent her entire life feeling that her inner ‘knowing’ was a weakness, that being different was a negative, not completely realizing the significance of her gifts. All the time and effort being invested in herself brought her into a deeper level of understanding – of herself and her world. This deeper level, or sensitivity, provided the ability to hear and feel her son’s presence – his love poured in, his words seemed almost audible, she could even feel him hugging her at times. She then recognized and acknowledged that she had always heard these soft, gentle and loving urgings, or knowings. Her deep feelings had always shown her the path, but like so many others, her mind and other outside pressures conspired to render it all useless and unimportant. Teena now knows how to tap into the wisdom, the magic, that’s waiting oh-so-patiently for a chance to show us the way.
This deep heart-connection is an on-going work of art. Properly nurtured over time, this precious gift is available to us all. Her wish for others is to not wait for a devastating event be the catalyst. It is there, patiently waiting but always evolving from a tiny bud into the most beautiful flower.
Knowing who she is within the loss, amd without allowing the trauma to become who she is became the real gift. Teena chose to accept and nurture that gift. Not everyone does – that is our free choice.
For Teena, the loss of her son was more profound, more all-encompassing than the loss of her world as she knew it – it was a wake-up call from and to her own soul. Her son was trying to communicate this to her – telling her through dreams, feelings, thoughts and even outside mediums for a while, that he was fine – more than fine – he was in a perfect and beautiful realm where he was fully accepted and able to help people from where he was.
She hadn’t been listening to those inner promptings for many years — getting caught up in the seemingly ‘importance’ of the world’s trappings outside of herself. This move into a heart-based presence taught her to love and nurture herself, first, above all else.
Teena’s heartbreaking loss took her deeper into pure connectedness which deepened her bond to the earth and to nature, which prompted further studies in Shamanism and the ways of our ancient cultures. Ancient sites and cultures, such as Egypt and Peru, have consistently been a source of happiness, and now Teena will take people with her on these beautiful travel experiences while opening the doors of possibilities with a full immersion experience – a HeartSoul Convergence travel immersion experience.
Teena’s unique perspective, using her HeartMath training as the nucleus, and the experience of immense heartbreak, created an energy that helps others to discover and understand their own elusive ‘gift’ within. Whether we experience a great loss, an illness, a trauma or just an inner awakening that there must be ‘more’ to understand.